How do you feel if you can be disappear for a while? I would feel relieved, if i have the chance to do so. It’s funny how life can be so kind sometimes. I knew that somehow I don’t belong to where I live at this moment. No matter how hard I’ve tried, how extreme I rebuilt and reshaped, it still didn’t work.
So I am now packing my bags and going to a secluded place. A place where I could be a newborn child. I guess I’m too stubborn to be someone’s pride and joy. As a matter of fact, I feel awkward whenever I hear them saying such thing. As if it is a great deal in my life – their life – to be their someone’s special. I’m no man’s woman. An individual who chose her own path in life and how she sees life, regardless.
Born as Indonesian, it is the hardest thing to deal with when it concerns about parents. Although mine doesn’t seem to be a problem, but I could feel the sense of the obligation to obey their rules. Not to mention that I’ve been living away from them for eight years.
Again, I would say, how life can be so twisty. That it makes me hard to live on my own. But at least, they did that because they care. I wonder if they ever heard that too much care can be harmful?
As time goes by, I realize that it is important to love the life that I’m having right now. To celebrate every single moment, every breathe.
And then, there’s a friendship that I care the most in my life. My lovely friends, my only super heroes that stand there for me no matter what, the ones who would love to get lost together without a question, who had given me such wonderful.. wonderful years. A bound that is unbreakable. It’s more beautiful than my first love, or any other love story I ever had so far. They could be the only reason that kept me staying here for all this time, as a matter of fact.
I promise that I will fly home to them once in a while. The only place where I could call a home, it seems.
I did too many things, took my lessons, and carry on. So, here I am, going to a beautiful secluded place. Alone. On my own. I believe that this will be the greatest chapter in my life. I really do believe in that.
